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Saturday, SEPT 18, 2010

I worked out in the gym for 4 hours. Like serious work out. Need to be in shape coz I'm getting chubbier again.

5pm - My teammate (SANDY) and I met at greenhills coz I was planning to buy a new beanie. It has been a long time now since my last trip at greenhills. I had fun eating CALIFORNIA MAKI at teriyaki boy with her. Window shopping was tiring and although I wasn't able to buy what I was there for, I still managed to buy a cool shirt, not to mention cheap (P350). Haggling is so much fun. haha


Later that night, I went to BACARDI's geb... STARGAZING @ PARLIAMENT BAR. It was cool, but I didn't really want to come. Was tired already and I was frustrated to see h** again.. Yes you heard me, 'FIRST' again. Of course, I was still aloof after every things that's happened to us. Some members were teasing me to approach h**. I didn't have the courage at that time to speak with h**.. But then deep in my mind, I wanted to. I don't know what for. I did ask a friend for help. My friend pulled h** out of the bar and we spoke outside while smoking. I said sorry, I asked if everything's OK. I didn't really expect him to speak with me. He must be angry with me after what I sent via sms. That's ok. Part of the 'moving on' process I guess.

I wanted to hug h**, but I can't.. Too bad for me.

But looking back on what happened, I just realized... I'm now proud to say.. I LOVED H**! The care is still there but love has drifted away..



I'm back to myself again. BORING. SNOB. ALOOF... LONELY BOY is at it again..
I'm no longer excited reading sms, browsing fb..

Now i'm focusing my attention to myself. Going to the gym, preparing for medicine (fingers crossed) etc.





**BTW, I just noticed that this blogsite is starting to become my diary.. haha. UMAY? then fuck off! ahaha. I'll update my site soon. hehe.

come on and party!

vaffanculo!